To: Night (From My Soul)

I find my comfort inside of you, for the day has ended…

I’m home… and the chaos that consumes the waking moments, now ceases to exist… yet there is no silence to be found in the stillness of my mind…

For I am yelling through the top of my heart from the depths of my soul so that my lips never part to speak of how I wish not to be alone… And the echoes of my thoughts bounce off of every corner in every room…

I listen to them whirl past me and feel them collide into my very being… and it is not pain that becomes me, but it is not very far off because the truths hurt… they are the sticks and stones to my soul…

And I wish to lie down, but there is no rest to be had… for the day has taken so much from me and given nothing in return that I seek sustenance to have just enough energy to shed my pain… but it has left me nothing but myself and no one to hold me…

So I reach out to you… you who envelops me in your cloak like dark blues that may hide my tears… you who has such vast space for words, secrets… fears and listen to them, then take them away for safe keeping… you who with just the coolest and gentle wind can massage the pressures of daily life out of me and into thin air…

As I close my eyes… I listen to you not judge me… I listen to you listen to me… I feel you reassure me that there will come a time when you will meet someone that reaches out the same as I do…

But that there has never been a single day that I have been alone…

So to the night… tonight… and until tomorrow…

I love you…

Steam (Human Machines)

I am not a machine…

I cry, breathe, love… bleed…

Worked to the bone… see me breakdown…

In need of a mechanic and a surgeon because my parts no longer wish to work… and my heart murmurs what was once a strong thump…

I question my existence…

Only to listen to the silence that falls upon me that leaves me without an answer to my inquiry…

My thoughts and I wait alone… and the weight of being alone weighs more than one can stand… the pressure builds up… I break down…

But am far from broken… I just need a release…

I am only human…